I have fallen
Yep. I admit it. I have fallen from the sky to the earth. And I want to be fallen as much as I hate it.
I feel trapped. I know I should not given the circumstances, but all these deals, the guilt, the morals... I really feel trapped. Obligations... I run from obligations all the time. And at the same time I do like it in a way... But, I got asked to the movies tonight, and had to say no, because I was not sure what was he going to say. And I would not be able to hide it from him anyways.
I miss him. I really do. I know it is early for anything. I have no idea if i miss HIM or i just miss being intimate with someone. For now, I would say the later is more true than the former. But I still miss him. So much I even sent him 2 messages today. Why the hell do I care that much? We all know in a month I will not even remember who he is.
I so wish this time it will be different.
Unfortunately, I know myself.... and it will not be any different.
*sigh*
*tear*
1 Comments:
Awww hun! Thank you :)
It is not me that much... It is him more. And I am not like falling in love... I dunno. I am pretty confused, and he is really confusing. Neither of us is into serious long term relationships. I am afraid we are into it just for the fun.
meh, I think time is the only thing that can show...
But I will try to stop my mind controlling me for once and go with the flow :D
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