Some real news

SO I decided to put some constructive info on my life instead of going in circles typing stuff you would not understand fully anyways.
I am done with the round of midterms. Very exhausting I have to admit. It is just that they were clustered together, which made me have to study non-stop in the last 5 weeks under constant pressure. Also, obviously cramming actually IS my way of studying. I very much try to change that but oh well. And yes, I admit it, I have lost my passion, motivation, and desire for school. I like some of the things, and I hate others. Unfortunately, my jobs tend to be way better than my school.
So I took this weekend off. Watched The Incredible withs A. on Friday, which was very nice and sweet and I really liked it :D And I was able to sleep a lot that night, all by myself too!
Saturday... well... I felt really crappy because of all that thinking and what happened Thursday night. But I forced myself to try be more organized, went shopping for presents with my friends to the Eaton Centre. Spent there the whole afternoon, made a bunch of phone calls, had dinner in the Pickle Barrel with them. So was nice. Too bad I was too stressed and very sad to actually enjoy it. I guess the lack of sleep has been getting into me...
I did not get to see O. but I will on Tuesday :D But I did see A. We went to that nice restaurant on Younge and Bloor, The Saigon Sister, which turned out to be better than Spring Rolls. Then we went to the club disctrict and after rollling around, got to Montana for free. I guess that is where old people go, but we did not feel like dancing much, so just had few drinks. note to self: My new favourite alcoholic cocktail is Sex on the Beach. Both for the taste and for the name. I got only slightly tipsy. regardless of my attempts to get moderately drunk, I cannot do it. Maybe it is genes, maybe again my lovely self-inhibition. We actually left pretty early, cause we were getting kinda tipsy and bored. So I ended up walking on Spadina. I actually do remember that walk.
And... I spent Satuday night at Vic's. The walk at 4 am was pretty worth it, because things kinda worked out. It is true that communication is the most important thing. I decided to give it a try and let things slide by themselves. I have no idea where is it gonna go because of our past experience and interpretations of interpersonal relationships of any sort, but... as always, I am weak and easy and will give it another chance.
After walking back home at 8 am, I spent the whole Sunday morning and early afternoon SLEEPING! gosh, that felt so good, almost as good as the night itself. I did try to be all organized and what not, but I am just so... unmotivated. I cold barely read one of my articles, and did nothing but watch shows and try to sleep, which did not work. So now I am at the office and have more than 7 more hours to go. I may or may not do any productive work. I should start with the work though, because I desparately need to catch up, and exams are in a month!!!

Btw, i do NOT have a boyfriend. It is very socially constructed how people make assumptions on little things and statements.

Ok, well hope that sheds some light one my life :D
Too much emotions are detrimental for my sanity, but I cannot go without them either.
Love you :)