Booty Call

Let me give you an advice on the matter: don;t try them! they are not worth it. If you are so desparate for sex, better go to some club or a downplayed pub and get a one night stand. Cause no matter who says what, booty calls do lead to attachment. You cannot be seeing someone 3-4 times a week and have fun with them and not get attached. It just does not work that way. Cause eventually you would start asking personal questions. And when it gets personal, then you are in trouble.

I just cannot do it. I tried, I lied to myself, I tried to compromise. But it just does not work. Maybe Em is right saying that it is cause of my age and his age. At 21 you are looking for a long term relationship. But at 23, unless you are already in a long term relationship, you start going just for the fun., cause you have realized that dating is just a waste of time.

It's fucked. I am weak for keep going and allowing him to even touch me. I mean, I don;t get anythhing from it. He complains I am bitchy/cold/conservative. Well duh, sure I am since he is not willing to do anything different or wild. Misionary position does not cut it for me thank you very much. It may work great for him, but why the fuck I have to teach him what to do with me! Like foreplay helloooo!!! Haven't he heard about that. I am into it still just cause he is smart ambitious fun and I love arguing about everything. But, I can do that with a friend too. So instead of me going over it all the time and pissing both of us off, I just should kick him out. I mean, what's the point? I better stop wasting my time and start flirting again. Commitment? What commitment is he talking about? if he is just for sex, he is not good enough for me, so I better cheat. Now I finally understand why people cheat: 1) cause sex is not good enough for them; 2) cause they want emotional involvement and there is none; 3) cause they want to feel special and appreciated and don;t get it; 4) cause the other person is a fucking aggressive violent maniac who scares them to death and they are afraid next time he is gonna hit them and cause them actual physical harm. And guess what? I've got ALL 4 of these. I am so weak and stupid for letting him stay around.
I really wish I could stop being a nympho and just tell him to fuck off and never see him again!!!
FUCK YOU!