Messed up

In short:
I could not sleep last night.
I feel terrible
SKipped hald class tonight
Coudld not study
I'm getting all worked out cause of sex. I hate when that happens.
And I need to cram tomorrow.
SO I better go get some sex and sleep and wake up tomorrow and study like a good girl.

Also, that guy, well, he is too innocent for me. No matter hwo says what, I just can;t be with nice sweet guys. I need a guy who does not freak out when I mention about sex, but who is into it as much as I am.
Also, addiction comes back.
And now I will have to do what I was afraid to do and tried to escape any possible way in order to be functional tomorrow night.
I hate when my body and my desires start controlling me.

But as D. said, we have to do what we have to do. End of story.