Artifacts

Titles are so random lately cause I am random myself. A. loves when I just say something out of the blue and we augh like insane :D

Today was great :D I dunno why, but was great :D Just really the kind of days I would like to have all the time :D Not sure about the reason, but I can think of few. First, well, it was a couple of important people's birthday :D So maybe I have gotten back the ability to feel people's emotions, especially the positive ones. Second, well, ok, I know I am obsessed, but if it makes me happy, then why complain??? It is that great word with 3 letters that makes you feel like you are in heaven ;) You know what I mean :D Third, cause I got sleep :D Lots of it! Even though I keep pushing myself to go to bed at midnight, but as you can see, breaking the promise yet again.

Oh, what I did? Well, I studied wow :D In the JCR. We are not going to mention the little immature accident that happened, but honestly, I am so sorry for that person. But moi was in total control and I love myself :D And hearing some nice things from people I thought I got problems with was very interesting experience too ;) Thanks :D
Also, even my class wasn;t that boring, cause I combined studying with listening, and me is super proud of my productivity :D Lab on the other side should be way more productive.
I did go to the hospital, saw a bunch of kids, one of them screamed big time at me wow. Poor baby :( He has definately been very nervous :( Otherwise, was ok :)
Oh, The Thanksgiving Dinner!!! Adam and a bunch of people from my house cooked, and I had that aweome salad with fruits in it, and cranberry jam and pineapple! We all got stuffed! So Canadian!!! Was so nice, even though the frosh were not around. As always....
And I watched my first 2 hours of TV in few months! Survivor and the Apprentice! Ok, I admit it, I like reality shows wow. better than the Simpsons! Nobody kill me now :D

I remembered what was I going to talk about on the weekend... I found someone who deals with people exactly the same way as I do. Unfortunately, he happens to be one of my good friend's boyfriend... The way she described their relationship though and his reactions was exactly what I do... He puts high demands on her, expects her to be very attached, he is jealous, very loving and caring, understanding, but at the same time still wants to keep the distance and does not want to let her way too close in his life... And when she does something to hurt him, he just closes himself... and then in few weeks he has moved on and forgotten about everything... The only difference between us is that he forgets. I go back in 6 months or so and try to fix things, try to get the friendship at least back. Sometimes it works, other times it does not... It never worked with S. or J.... But it did work with G. I keep thinking if he was not my brother and teacher I would probably be with him now. I really love him... And what is more important, I know he loves me... Probably more than I love him.

So anyways, obviously, I am not the only person who prefers avoidance than dealing with situations. I am trying very hard to change things though.

Adam invited me over on Sunday and Monday, but i have to work... and I am seeing my parents on Monday. They are taking us to Niagara on the lake and then to restaurant or something... Uhmmm, ok, I am terrified by meeting them. But I figured, I am not gonna see them till Christmas, so better try be a nice daughter now.

Note to self: No more sleeping with nothing on, cause I am gonna get something from A. or someone else very soon! OK! it is not worth it if the price is sickness. And I cannot get sick right now for sure!!!

K, time to push myself into sleep :D
Night Night
love you :D