Bullshit!
Fuck! I am tired of all that stupidity around. Like seriously, I am stupid myself to alow people to just apologize, and then I act like nothing is wrong and life is great again, when they do not deserve me. Wtf! It is not enough just to SAY you care and want me in your life! You need to ACT like it and DO it. I don;t buy stupid words, or at least I should not. Cause I have seen it millions of times that it does not matter at all. So sick it up Nina and get to your fucked up nice sweet loving mind that people do not give a shit about others, and you should not give either. Who cares? nobody. Don;t come to me with the excuse that he does, cause he does not either. Whatever, fuck it up. I just wanted you to know.
And I fucking hate when people make plans behind my back. This is not friendship. So you can be with me whenever you are lonely and wanna feel good but you cannot invite me with you for coffee. Whatever. I have enough shit in my life already to need whoever. People are jerks. They do not get it. So just let them live in their dreamworld. Cause at the end the only one that cares about you is yourself. Not that I myself care about myself. And yeah, I am mad. And no, it is not because of last night. I do not even remember last night! Screw it! Screw me too. I just do not remember. It does not matter anyways, nothing really matters anymore. So just don;t allow your heart rate to get over it is supposed to be, cause no excutement is worth it. People do not appreciate, I will not appreciate them either. End of story.
K, now fuck it all and go to bed.
Oh yeah, no more drugs. They just fuck me over. Unless it is weed, forget about the drugs. Weed is the only good thing I can trust.
K get your mind to that.
Fuck you.
2 Comments:
Honestly, Sabi, I appreciate your concern, but this post was not directed towards Friday as you may think. I do not really like when people make assumption about my life when they know nothing about me. And I will get worked up about whatever I want to get worked up about, because this is my blog, and this is also my life.
Thanks anyways :D
My MSN nickname is for a lot of people, but your pst just provoked it.
I do not want to be nasty, or rude, or mean to you, but the truth is that I have gone through alot in my life, and I am dealing with a lot of problems. So I have certain times when I need to let it go. A blog is a good way to do that. I cannot keep things in me. I need to let them out with as much power as possible.
Linking my Biome post to my blog did make sense I guess. But that was far not even half of the whole picture.
I just get very pissed off when people judge me and advice me without me asking them, and especially when they know nothing about my life. It has been going on a lot lately, and I am tired of that. I do not think anyone is able to understand or help me, so I do not ask for understanding or help either.
And my blogger is a very restricted area. I would not say things I say here in person, so I do not exactly expect people to respond. And especially when I am extremely mad. I just need to let it out. That is why I started the blog in the first place. And I also love hard music :D
And yeah, I do not allow myself to get emotional anymore. If I do, I do it because I need it, or because I am in a very drugged state. SO yeah. Thanks, and sorry again for beeing rude, but I would definately prefer if nobody comments on my blog when I am mad. Advices do not help when I am sad, and feel like crying, or when I am confused, or when I am happy. Comments help even less when I am pissed off.
I know how to take care of myself, I know how to control myself and my life when needed, I really do not feel anyone right now in my life.
Thanks :D
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